If you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly.
If you keep up with my blog at all, you may know that I have been a bit hardened to love, relationships, romance, and basically anything sappy. This is due to, yeah, you guessed it, heartbreak.
But I’ve been listening to a lot of Destroy Nate Allen lately and they have a few songs that are a bit on the mushy side (it is a husband-wife duo, after all) and they seem to have softened me up a bit. Quite a bit, actually.
Just the other day I read a quote from C.S. Lewis that said “If you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly. But it’s still worth it.” It hit me hard. It’s ignorant and selfish to be so hardened to relationships like I have been. I may not have made it as evident, but inside, I was absolutely disgusted and turned away by everything that was even slightly romantic and sappy. But I think Destroy Nate Allen must’ve slipped me a few subliminal messages about it all.
Yes, at the dawn of last year I experienced a horrible, despairing heartbreak. Why? Well, because I was in love, and the relationship did not work out. When you love someone, you become very vulnerable. You’re opening yourself up to another person, just as those monsters on Resident Evil open themselves up to be blasted to bits. Anyways, love is a dangerous risk. But it is also the most amazing feeling that you’ll ever feel.
Relationships with a guy/girl can be closely compared to the relationship we are offered with God. At first, we can be very thick-headed, but when (or if you ever) do decide to open up to God, many can testify, there is nothing better in the whole wide world.
Some of us go through heartbreaks in relationships, and some of us never experience it. When a heartbreak occurs it is always for a specific reason. Some of us might not know what that reason is for months, years, and sometimes we may never know. But just because we don’t know the reason, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. God is much bigger than us, and His mind is much more divine than ours, that is why we call Him God. And God will never put you through something (like a heartbreak) that you cannot handle, and He will not ever put you through something without there being a purpose. The same goes for when we get ourselves into stuff that we shouldn’t be in, God turns our mistakes around and utilizes them for His advantage.
Anyways, what I’m trying to say is that God is divine, and Destroy Nate Allen writes good songs.
Sometimes, my relationship with God just feels so real. I’m not saying I doubt or anything. I’m just saying that sometimes, God just seems more real than others. It’s as if He’s not just ‘the big man upstairs that I pray to,’ but He’s actually like a Father to me. When I most need it, God is always there for me and that never fails. The relationship I have with Him, it’s just so real. Sometimes it’s just as real as if someone were sitting right beside me. Nights like that really prove to me that God is real and that He is very much alive. Nights like that help affirm the love that God does have for me.
I’m posting this simply because I can’t stand to keep quite about how great of a God I serve, and I’m posting this in hopes that you might read it. Maybe it will encourage you to pick back up with your faith if you’ve been stagnant for a while. Maybe it will open your eyes to see that God is really more than just some sort of religious figure. Maybe this will just sound absolutely stupid to you, and I’m okay with that.